the blog is so dead i want to make it alive but maybe i am too lazy to i will try to post more often
i really miss the friends i have in mcs the friends in phs can never be compared with friends in mcs i find myself so differnt from them i am always trying to be happy with them but God knows, i don't really find the joy
i just find the kiran incident repeating itself i know i stop thinking about her after bryan come into the picture but too, i don't want bryan to become kiran no 2.. i took 2 years to forget aout kiran and i am very sure i don't want to take another 2 years to forget about bryan ppl always ask me, why do i love bryan so much the only thing i can say is i also don't know i only know that he is he only senior that i rmb after i pass by only 1 time after that 1 time i always take notice of him i tot it was love so i told the ppl around me and i started to know more about him his name and things i even go online looking for his friendster until the jj fair incident i find myself loving him more i got so in love that i added him in msn we chatted and again got more in love until that day i actually told him that i love him i know i am stupid liking someone that i don't even know maybe is because God want me know him i know he have His reason for bring bryan into my life but i am feeling very low because of him everytime when someone talk to bryan i will feel so jealous i know it s wrong to do that but i just can't help it i really need help i tried to stop thinking of him i tried to avoid him but it only make me more sad wad can i do i really want to know..
