Monday, October 20, 2008
the school is only so small
but is it already so hard to meet someone
if only i walk up to the music room earlier,
i will see him.
if 2 person is not fated, even if there are only 3 classrooms
they won't meet too.
seriously, i tried looking for you in school,
but i don't see you.
last time when i always see you, i will try to hide
when now i don't see you at all, i want to see you badly.
the feeling of knowing you are in school but not able to see you... is terrible.
i thought that i have gotten over you,
but the fact is, i can't forget you.
maybe without having you in my life will be the best thing
but at the same time, i am happy that you did came into my life..
because you are my happy memory.
i seriously think co sucks now
i don't know, i just hate it
for almost every practice, all i do is just sit there
when can i join in the song?
i really think it is a waste of time.
i could have spend that time doing something else
something more useful.
next month will be my dizi exam,
i am not prepared at all
i can't even play a single piece of the exam song properly
do i really suck in it so much?
i am only using half a year to catch up with ppl
they learnt it at the start of the year
or for even some, a few years
why am i so stupid to take the grade 3 exam in just 6 months?
you think you are very talented is it?
you are not.
i can't stand it alr. i know i can't do it
i gave up, is hopeless.
"The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the
ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes." -Thomas
Hardy
10:10:00 PM <3
