(hope he don't see this)
today is a nice day
every single thing made me happy
nothing much happened in school
other then the part that i still can't believe samuel is so niceeeee!
after school ate with edwin and tymon
then went to tymon's house, edwin didn't go
wanted to study, but slack most of the time. lol
didin't know tymon is a neat person lahh
his room is like so much neater than my room=.=
and,
NEWS OF THE DAY: tymon don't know how to lock his house door. lol
really, he took super long trying to lock it lahh
then after that blame here blame there
and after he lock it, he unlock it and lock it again just to show that he know=.=
left at about 5+ and homed :)
monday was the worse day ever
never a time that i felt so useless
so helpless
self-esteem and confidence drop to zero
never a time that i feel so bad
not even when i score badly for my tests
not even when my future seem so unsure
never knew something like that will affect me so much
wanted so badly to cry after the incident
but i hold it till the end of co
after crying it out really made me feel so much better
the morning devotion yesterday was great, very meaningful
it feels like God is telling me thr the mouth of others about the incident
about the way how i should look at it
about why this is happening at all
He never fail to guide me thr my hard times,
never leaving me alone
always sending people to make me happy and talk to me about life
good or bad, happy or sad
even when i went bad, not following his way
so bad till i hated him, not believing him anymore
till i actually leave church, for close to 3 years
He sent people to me, touching my heart so much that made me wanted to go back
but for some reasons i never do.
still, He waited and sent more people to me
He never give up on me.
i think he look so much better in this pic=.=