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2012-02-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

Lectures started today. I am already feeling the heat and the stress of JC life when it just started. I mean, I was still having a careless attitude yesterday while preparing for today. I actually hope I can still live in self denial that Jc life will be okay, I will still be able to cope with work.... but my class woke me up. I need to stop dreaming.

There was a 3 hours break today between lectures. I am the assistant CT rep, so obviously I wanted the class to have a small discussion on the CVD stores. The class met up outside the lecture place for the intended discussion. We were waiting for the late comers and someone took out her lecture notes and started studying. I was really really shocked. I mean, proper lectures have yet to be started, what are there to be studying for? Soon after, the rest of the class followed. My first impression of YJC is that the school is a slacker school. My class obviously proved otherwise. Have been telling myself no to be affected by possibly slacker friends, but now I realise I am actually the slacker. Still remember the shit I said about fear getting into YJC due to the studying environment. Well, so far the school has proved itself to be really dedicated. Really hope I will have a bright future ahead of me. I MOST STUDY HARD!!!!!

2011-11-19T03:35:00.001+08:00

I am feeling lost, very lost. I am at a period where I move from path to path, onto another phase of my life. I am having this very strong fear of having no way to go. Judging from the way my Os went, I lost my little last hope for my future, a decent path for the next few years of my life. Well, if i didnt work for it then i wont be whining. The problem is, i did. People always say that hardwork will show. It isnt, not a single bit.

Nothing has been going well in my life lately, nothing. Life is as meaningless as ever. I need help to guide me on, to give me some hope. For me to live on.

Forgotten emotions.

2011-07-26T19:47:00.001+08:00

I actually thot that I will feel better after saying everything out, but it feels the other way round. I actually felt a lot more worse. I realize letting it sink deep down into my heart and let it slowly get forgotten will be a better solution. It's like, thru that little conversation, all the forgotten emotions and feelings are slowly floating back up. I thot I am okay, I thot I will be fine after that cool down period. Seems like I am wrong once again.

Miss and love you always.

2011-06-26T06:24:00.000+08:00

Feeling unwell.

This is the first time I sleep before the sun raises in the 2 weeks of the so called holiday. I know i have weird sleeping hours. Anyway, the point is that, I woke up after an hour to find myself perspirating in the air-con room. It's not that I was feeling warm, I actually felt cold. I seriously have no idea what happened. Felt a lot better after a warm cup of milk, still trying to fall back asleep. Tuition at 10am in the morning. Wish me luck.

Finally a post after so long. Haha ^^

TVB Awards!

2011-06-25T02:19:00.005+08:00

http://www.starhub.com/tvbawards

VOTE FOR BOSCO WONG! ^^

I am back.

2011-05-08T04:52:00.009+08:00

The title of my previous post totally matched the reason to why I am back here, hahah. I actually wanted to reuse my wordpress blog instead, read through some of the posts and realised it is a little too private. The reason to why I came back here and not there. hehehe. Found this template in my comp so I just used it. Its Boscolie anyway, so yayyyy!

I actually wanted to start updating since quite long ago, realised that the 120 words limit in twitter is never enough for me, hahha. Never really put it into actions until something that really prompted me to do so.

I have a lot of things that I want to post about. Will be back when MYE is over! Anyway, I am still up at this hour cause I was watching the live update of GE 2011. I cant believe I actually followed the whole thing, hahah.

P/S: I AM ANTI MY BROTHER. THAT TRAITOR WILL BE ELIGIBLE FOR THE NEXT GE. TRAITOR. He totally forgot that he has a unique surname (the spelling) that only Hong Kongers have!

i will be back.

2009-07-06T13:27:00.003+08:00

Relink.

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2009-07-02T15:16:00.002+08:00

i know it will never happen.
but at the same time, i hope it will happen.

weird, i kmow.

2009-06-27T04:33:00.008+08:00

i am here to post a few things about my holiday in hk! was great
and also to complain about the trouble tracy made me go through!
i freaking have to change train 4 times just to meet her lahh!
yuen long -> mei foo
mei foo -> prince edward
prince edward -> kowloon tong
kowloon tong -> mong kok east
so troublesome can.
i can change train 1 time less if she agree to meet at mong kok lahh
which is even a better place to shop =.=
and what makes me proud when i go out with her is that i always reach earlier than her
actually, that is no reason to be proud. lol
but guess what?
this time she is like 15mins earlier than me, when i am alr like 15 mins early =.=
in short, we plan to meet at 2pm and she reach at 1.30pm.
so annoying lahh!

another thing in hk is that me and cousins break our record again!
3 movies in a row!
1. Duplicity (hk have alr)
2. Blood the Last Vampire (i was shocked to find out SG m18 can, hk is like for all age =.=)
3. Terminator Salvation
i feel proud. hahahahah!
anyway, the second movie is the bad, seriously not worth watching.
Terminator Salvation was great, but i slept a bit. hah
too tired alr lahh, 3 movie in a row lehh =.=
the first one was okay, the ending is quite unexpected :)

the last thing i want to say is about the trip to macau!
was horrible can.
i wasted my 1 whole day there going to 3 different parks to look at lotus plant =.=
then each park like a few only.
is like why can't there just put it all in 1 park?
and if it is like very outstanding i don't mind lorhh
but it is ......speechless.
but anyway, got cookies for 5cents gang. hah :)

btw, i take away the blog song alr,
i find it very noisy and annoying lahh. lol
i am going to sleep alr.
byeeeeeeeeeeee.

read and laugh for all you want,
i don't freaking care.

2009-06-16T02:24:00.020+08:00

i saw a lot of photo on daddy's comp!
omg, i miss japan so much can!
the food is like wonderful. wonderful.
japan japan!
and i just realised that i didn't update anything about the trip ):
btw, dad and bro went together first
then me and mum, so no photos together ):
but we went to the same place all there, hah.

anyway, the photos. and random photos i found on the comp :)

the flower show

japan

parent's 26th wedding anniversary celebration

2009-06-15T22:23:00.010+08:00

i miss co!
i miss sectionals!
i miss my dizi!
i want to go for co camp!

jealousy kills lahh!
i am so jealous of those that can make it for co camp can!
i just went to the co blog and find out that the camp is on 19 june.
why not on days after 22 june?
i want to go for the camp!
and i received a msg from sl regarding the co tee,
why is so much happening when i am away?
sad!
i hope i can be in sg now!
because seriously,
being in hk is not much better better than being in sg can ):
i come back too often alr, getting super boring.

anyway, i just got back my pass.
the stupid pass that a hong konger must have to be allowed in china
that was the main purpose of me coming to back to hk this time actually.
and that time i say i will die from my parents is because of this lahh
the hk ic is needed to make this pass =.=
so in the end asked my auntie to dhl the thing over. lol

and i just realised that i am coming back on 22 june instead of 21 june =.=
lucky i realised it early, if not sure die from parents. lol
i go watch tv alr, bye.

it is just so sad.
i just went to daohan's blog and found out that cai lao shi is leaving.
maybe we deserve all this, but i seriously dun want her to leave.
after all the seniors left, dizi alr left with nothing
and now, even the lao shi leave us.
i can't imagine what will happen to us.
seriously, a lot/too much is happening this period of time.

2009-05-30T12:40:00.008+08:00

omg! die! die!
i think i am too forgetful alr!
screammmmmmmmmmmm!
i took the wrong ic!
i am suppose to bring the hk ic but instead i took the sg one!
btw, i am in the airport now.
and due to my forgetfulness
i am going to cause lots of trouble later when i reach hk
sure die from my parents, shit lahh!

btw, i wanted to post about my lunch with edwin ytd, but no time!
just one sentence to sum up the whole thing.
the weirdo went to hide behind the dustbin when he see tse hng
why?
because he don't want people to see him with me. =.=
like what lahh, like i am a monster that he can't be with like that
stupid edwin!
but anyway, he is nice lahh. :)
he took like 30mins just to go back with me to school to look for mr tan.
okay, going to board alr, bye.
will be back on 21/6 :)

2009-05-22T23:50:00.009+08:00

i had lots of fun today!
both during lessons and after school outing!

first 2 period, science
the 2 period of science is just sleep and listen to music lesson
seriously wonder what happened to mr lim
absent for like 3 days already
but anyway, who cares.
i rather have free period then lessons :D
not in the mood to study yet.
after that maths
mr tan was late for lesson
he kept showing us magic tricks. HAHA
anyway, for some reason our class clock is late by 10mins
so we got dismiss from class a little earlier than the others (:
recess,
went to wait for tymon outside his class
was staring down at the parade square looking at the sec1s
when suddenly mdm lee came to talk to me and elizabeth
about weird things like world end, churches, doctors and the stupid swine flu =.=
but anyway, she is nice (:
and when tymon see us talking to her, he just abandon us!
terribly mean lahh ):

okay,
watched night at the museum 2 with edwin, tymon and elizabeth after school
is really fun laughing at tymon the village uncle
and edwin the weirdo! hahahaha!
tymon is like going to shops and WOW at the goods lahh!
and, he keep all the leftover chilli sauce and bbq sauce in his bag =.=
is like a uncle who just left the village lahh =.=
he say he did it just for entertainment purposes. right.
hah, edwin is trying to be kind the whole time.
but it just turn out weird =.=
is like there is this person giving out flyers,
then when edwin see her he just walked awa and is like action very big and obvious.
haiya, i don't know how to explain but it is just super funny (:
but anyway, he is seriously nice
he lend me his jacket during the movie when i was close freezing. haha
thanks edwin (:

after that home with edwin
for once, i support tymon and thinks that edwin is gay!
i shouldn't mention much
nothing after that.

2009-05-19T23:26:00.017+08:00

i am still thinking thr the question Shuqing asked me the other day
i still have no answer to it.
maybe she is right, how did i do it?

i don't rmb what i did in school today!
who rmbs what they do on a slacking day?
slack lahh! thats all i rmbed. haha

i keep thinking that today is friday!
during one of the lessons, i suddenly rmbed today is tuesday
and then i got worried,
i forgot there is tuition and left all the tuition things at home =.=
after that, after lunch,
i forgot is it tuesday again and wanted to go sectional with eliz
then i look at my watch and realised again it is tuesday =.=
and then i went to take MRT to the tuition centre.
saw Jing Jie on the way, talked
then again, i forgot it is tuesday and drop off at TPY!!!!!
i got off the train and then realised i got off at the wrong station
went back up, and finally, reach tuition. WOW!
my bro say i keep doing weird things =.=
yeah, right.

didn't really do anything in tuition
i took 2 hours to complete 4 questions! coooool!
hahahahaha.
finally found out the name of my good friend (:
jerom!
then there was this convo that i once again laughed like mad =.=
tuition teacher: ehh, you know how to do the amaths question or not? (obviously not me) *no one answer*
tuition teacher: you!!!
*everyone turn and look at him and seriously have no idea who he is talking to*
jerom: me arhh? you don't know my name?
tuition teacher: start with J? (wow! nice teacher)
me: no! start with G! good friend! hahahahah
the convo continues and that is how i found out his name (:
i think i seriously need to stop disturbing people during tuition =.=
after that nothing much. homed.

2009-05-14T21:17:00.008+08:00

talked to shuqing this morning again (:
i just love talking to her
looking for her tmr morning again
i think she thinks i am annoying!
and she said that i very lesbian =.=
but nvm, just for tmr again
i will stop looking for her next week ):
i just love it that i can talk about whatever i want to her
not feeling any distance between us, nothing.
the trust that i have in her is far more than i can have for anyone.

not much about lessons today
slack all the way, normal lessons tmr ):
okay then there was this part in science lesson, i was laughing like mad okay
Mr Lim: what is the name for this 2 chapters arhh? (chapter 27,28)
Samuel: *said something but i didn't hear*
Mr Lim: huh? sex and me?
Me: reproduction in humans!
Mr Lim: what? sex can wait?
right, my bro say is not funny =.=
and then i was arguing with po yi too and then i insulted arnold unknowingly
arnold: ehh, pass back the paper to po yi
me: i don't talk to boys one, call him then i pass
arnold: what? you mean i am a girl arhh?
hahaha, actually i know i was insulting him
but i just wanted to see his reaction.
hahahahahah.

and yeah, LMZ added 3 marks for my chinese paper 2!!!
but i still failed =.=
by 1 markkkkkkk!!!
i still can't recover from the chinese shock!
chineseeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
right, byeeeeeeeee.

2009-05-12T23:07:00.006+08:00

i passed english paper 1.
it reached my target and went above what i expected.

i failed chinese paper 2.
i scored a just pass for chinese paper 1.

it is just so weird, i thought it would be the opposite.
God i pray, give me the strength to move on.

2009-05-10T21:57:00.013+08:00

that one small incident really tells me a lot about true friendship

who just come to me when they are in need.

who truely treat me as a friend.

Shuqing, i love you.

you are the only one that makes me understand the meaning of friendship

that might be just a small little act,

going with me around the school to look for colour pencils.

that is all that is needed for me to have hope in friendship.

unlike others who show no care before or even after the incident.

life is just that simple, knowing that there is a friend by your side when you are in need.

i can give up everything just to have Shuqing by my side.

it might sound very wrong, but that is exactly what i am thinking.

i will post a normal post next time,

no more emo emo posttttt!

2009-05-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

you really have to stop making me smile to myself.
you just did it again.

2009-05-03T14:37:00.009+08:00

just had a nice talk with my uncle before lunch
and a nice talk with my auntie during lunch =.=
i understood more about life and now i think i know what i should do.
life is not about that. not about winning or anything like that.
or maybe it wasn't the talks that changed me.
it just made me understand better.

i give up.
you can win me and be happy for all you want.

2009-04-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

OMG! THE CHINESE TEACHER GAVE MY GROUP FULL MARKS FOR ICT!
he only said that my group got very high, but what?
WHO WILL EXPECT IT TO BE A FULL MARKS!
CRAZY! SCREAM!

2009-04-27T22:48:00.007+08:00

Act 1 Scene 1
Antonio I hold the world but as the world, Gratinao -
A stage, where every man must play a part,
And mine a sad one.

2009-04-24T00:14:00.014+08:00

phsco. 9.40am. 21/04/09. SYF`o9

I remember. I miss.

[Edited/]

I just hate Samuel Tan.
he always make me get scolded or insulted by teachers.
first was Mr Lim then today Mrs Wong. =.=

i think i am in love with co.

i wrote about it during Eng exam today, question 5.

many people asked me how i can link it to co.

is like long story so i didn't explain.

but yeah, i just somehow linked them together =.=

[/Edited] 8.06pm

2009-04-22T22:20:00.016+08:00

phsco `08/09

i will really miss the seniors.

especially shuqing and daohan.

p/s. we got pizza not because we got a silver.
you don't have to say things like
' co have pizza. but they only get silver lehh'
we got the pizza is because the senior wanted to treat us as a leaving gift or something.
surely not because of the silver
why not blame your senior for not treating instead of insulting us?

I became an Indian lady because of Samuel =.=

Mr Lim is real imaginative. lol

2009-04-09T19:37:00.013+08:00

i was so freaking scare just now lahh!
i was reading news at hk yahoo
and then i came across an article calling for relatives of a old lady who was wandering on the street

警方尋找元朗遊蕩婆婆親人
(明報)4月9日星期四 17:40
警方急欲會晤一名老婦的親人，她昨日早上約九時半在元朗教育路遊蕩，她年約七十至八十歲。
她身高約1.46米，中等身材及蓄短白髮。被發現時身穿紫色衣服及長褲，身上並無任何身分證明文件。
警方呼籲市民如有該名女子的身分或其親屬的資料，請盡快致電 2473 8213 或 2473 8327 與元朗警署當值人員聯絡。
(即時新聞)

the place where the old lady was found is the place i stay.
that lady is 1.46m which is the same as my grandmother
she was wearing purple top and long pants
which is also what my grandma like to wear.
the best thing is, my maid went back to her hometown for holiday
conclusion: i tot the missing lady was my grandma.
i got so scared and called home lahh!
in the end my grandma answered the phone=.=
got scared for nothing. lol

2009-03-29T20:18:00.028+08:00

(i just realise i didn't post the post from last week=.=)
today was really a great and fun day! (:

woke up at 9.30am and get ready to go back to school for the great show
was suppose to meet tracy at yck mrt at 11am
but she was super late!
i reached at 11.03am and she reached at 11.23am
i got so super pissed off can!
she is always late for meetings.
i mean always.

after that went back to school
saw him at parade ground (:
he is super outstanding can
so white, so short. and so cute!
went up to the second floor for better view
stood there for like 30mins until the thing ends.
after that just went to the parade ground to see the BB clean up and things
i don't know what they were doing.
singing birthday song?
then there were this part when they were clearing up the chairs.
at first, he tried carrying 5 chairs
he can't make it.
then, he tried carrying 3 chairs
he still can't make it
last, he carry 2 stairs and succeeded.
i was sitting there and laughing like mad can
but i think he didn't see me. lucky.

nothing much after that.
waited for tymon and went for lunch together.
i keep pissing him off by not wanting to go and forcing him to stay :D
to see him for a longer time (:
waited like 15mins.
and tymon keep pissing tracy off
keep calling her to go away.
hahaha, we are like having fun pissing people off =.=
btw, tracy said that the coffee in our school is very nice
and i treated her to the coffee okay
but in the end i found out that i only have $2 for lunch
so she return me $1 =.=
and they say that this is the first time i am so broke=.=

went amk hub for lunch
there was this weird auntie who sat on our table and keep talking to us =.=
she told us to save money
and talked about the economic crisis?
also about saving $2 per day to understand how hard is it for money to come by.
she even asked what my mum and dad work as
and why i weren't with them =.=
then there was this part when tymon walked away to take chilli sauce.
and she said this to me.
weird aunite: is he your bro?
me: yeah (like real lahh=.=)
weird auntie: he very cute horhh.
i was like LOL lahh!
then i just smile.
if not tell me how to react?

after the auntie left, we just continue to eat eat eat.
and the main part of the story.
1 whole group of bb boys came to eat too.
and he was there.
he didn't see us at first, until someone whisper something into his ears.
he turned and saw us.
he got shocked and then mouth omg at us.
i was like.
most you mouth omg at us?
what did we do wrong?
all we did is just eat there.
we came earlier, not like we stalk you there or something.
not only him, everyone there just gave us that weird look.
the 2 of us just rush our food and left.
tymon called him to ask about the omg-ing on the way to mrt
and he said he wasn't omg-ing us.
how fake.
he even ask tymon and am i his sis=.=

i just emo my way home.
but i had my dose of him that will last me for weeks or even months.

2009-03-28T01:51:00.003+08:00

hah, my blog is too dead alr.
i have a lot to say, but i don't have the time
i was totally freak out by the amount of hw the past few days
maybe i am just slow in doing my work
but all i know is, i freaking sleep less than 4 hours per day
i survived on coffee.

it is a 1.56, i will update more tmr.

2009-03-11T23:50:00.005+08:00

why are they forever so free?
really, i want to know.
free until can keep coming outside my house jalan jalan.
even if i stay near THEIR friend they don't need to come disturb me right?
yesterday, they come to play with my shoes=.=
today afternoon when i am out, they come to make noise and scream my name.
today night when i am having dinner they come look look.
jonathan still can sms me and ask am i having dinner and
do i usually sit near the window while having dinner.
don't they know already?
they are just so lame and free can.
stupid.

2009-03-03T20:52:00.006+08:00

too much ups and downs in a day will really make you go crazy
happy at this moment, sad the next and then happy again
you will just get mixed up by your own emotions
then things will start to go wrong
it even makes it worse when you try to hide it and you have nowhere to let go
is like you know you are sad on the inside,
but your are laughing out loud on the outside. trying to be strong and happy
and after all the sudden change in emotions,
you start not to know what is happening already
it is when you start to get emotionless and nothing will be the same anymore....

i need time.

2009-02-28T23:34:00.024+08:00

Elizabethhhh Cheeeeeeee!

i don't know what to write =.=,

but at least i still remember i owe you a post (:

yeah, i must thank you for writing the notes for me when i was absent.

that is the reason for this post right?

it really helped, at least i know what your did that few days.

if it was me, i will just lend you my notebook to copy instead of rewriting it.

haha, thank you for being such a nice friend lahh (:

and is like without you i will be like stoning in class alone everyday.

hmm, you are my bestfriend and will always be lahh (:

i know our friendship will last long! hah.

and i think i should say something like...

you are pretty, you are nice. you are caring, you are fun.

you are smart and you are tall (like real) !!

i mean i am tall lahh ;D

okay, end of my nice post. hahahahaha!

2009-02-24T20:40:00.008+08:00

hahahahahahah!
i am so happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
super nice day nice day nice day!!

the maths test today wasn't good.
although i can do must of the question
but i am super angry still
the last question!
i can identify the graph as inverse proportion graph
but for some reason my brain fly to america
and solve it using the direct proportion way=.=
after that when i realise the mistake alr no time!!
3 marks!!!!! 3 marks!!!!! 3 marks!!!!!

and mrs chong didn't come to school today
like lol, lit common test is on friday can!!!
hope for the best people (:
1 lesson and we really miss out a lot.
but we were having great fun then, laugh like mad!
2grace`o9!! (:
after that H.E, best!
made apple crumple, is nice can. great funnnnn!
too bad, didn't get a chance to take photo ):
we did a H.E re-test too. i don't think i will fail, but won't score well too. sad
but better than nothing.
who call me forget today have re-test? serve me right.
and i am such a nice friend.
i saved some of my apple crumple for tymon.
tymon toh, you should be honoured lorhh!
when jasmine wanted to try it i also don't allow!
still keep complaining, say very sour blah blah
is the apple that is sour. is green apple hello

after school mos burger with elizabeth and tymon
mos chicken, corn soup!
btw, elizabeth stop being so horny!
ahahahaha!

after that went tuition, the best part of the day
laugh till i almost go mad.
there is one part when my tuition teacher wrote this on a piece of paper
and paste it on someone's back
S.O.S. HELP! i am despo.
everyone started laughing, was funny mad!
homed after that (:

btw, i changed back my blog song to the old song
due to the request of edwin ho
who said that the new song is very noisy.
so i just changed back to the old one
edwin the honest guy who returned the $$ he found to the general office. lol
the announcement is funny.

2009-02-20T23:37:00.007+08:00

yes, i find myself super stupid.
i fall into telling daniel gan about FBT/FCL
once again i got cheated into his nice nice talk and told him who i like.
the moment the yeah come out from my month i alr regret it so much
i hate sitting with him.
i am going to make sure not to sit with him again or stop talking to him
yes, i am going to.
and jonathan told me that he almost told FBT/FCL about it
but he didn't want to know with my consent
so nothing happened and i was safe today.
not sure of monday though.
i hate going to school now.
i wonder why do i fear it so much actually
fear of rejection? fear of getting prank? or the fear of being laugh at?
most probably the fear of letting people know i like a guy like him.
i can't believe it either.
just like how shocked jonathan and daniel were when i told them.
i don't know, all this is making me crazy.

all i know is, i just brought death upon myself due to my own stupidity, how great.

2009-02-18T20:50:00.027+08:00

me and tymonnnnn!

i think he look so much better in this pic=.=

(hope he don't see this)

today is a nice day

every single thing made me happy

nothing much happened in school

other then the part that i still can't believe samuel is so niceeeee!

after school ate with edwin and tymon

then went to tymon's house, edwin didn't go

wanted to study, but slack most of the time. lol

didin't know tymon is a neat person lahh

his room is like so much neater than my room=.=

and,

NEWS OF THE DAY: tymon don't know how to lock his house door. lol

really, he took super long trying to lock it lahh

then after that blame here blame there

and after he lock it, he unlock it and lock it again just to show that he know=.=

left at about 5+ and homed :)

monday was the worse day ever
never a time that i felt so useless
so helpless
self-esteem and confidence drop to zero
never a time that i feel so bad
not even when i score badly for my tests
not even when my future seem so unsure
never knew something like that will affect me so much
wanted so badly to cry after the incident
but i hold it till the end of co
after crying it out really made me feel so much better
the morning devotion yesterday was great, very meaningful
it feels like God is telling me thr the mouth of others about the incident
about the way how i should look at it
about why this is happening at all
He never fail to guide me thr my hard times,
never leaving me alone
always sending people to make me happy and talk to me about life
good or bad, happy or sad
even when i went bad, not following his way
so bad till i hated him, not believing him anymore
till i actually leave church, for close to 3 years
He sent people to me, touching my heart so much that made me wanted to go back
but for some reasons i never do.
still, He waited and sent more people to me
He never give up on me.

2009-02-16T20:07:00.005+08:00

i am not qualified to sit with daohan.

i will never forget today. the worse co ever.

2009-02-12T22:47:00.013+08:00

dad just called me
he was like was he the one who stole my shoes
as in to take revenge
i was like no lahh, it can't be him.

co today was amazing!
one of the most fun co everrrr.
i love dao han, i love shuqing!!
they make co fun :)
and we got scolded for talking too much=.=

only 4 dizi came today
dao han, shuqing, me, yusheng (unbelievable)

that was this part when the conductor ask dao han to help the guzheng person
then after he come back i was like expressing my "love" for him=.=
me: dao hannnn! i want express my love for you!
dao han: huh?
me: i hate that girl because he take you away from me!
dao han: =.=
don't get it wrongly, just friend love :)
i hate that girl for taking him away is because without him, i can't play
i need him to help me count and tell me when/where to blow
and also help cover up my mistake, the main point. hah!
but i did blow when he was away lahh, but with much mistakes. lol
but i made little mistakes when he was with me which is good
dao han is going to give me 2 ferrero rocher for that!
it was actually a bbt if i can play by last mon, but obviously i can't
then second chance, 1 ferrero rocher if i can play today
which happened!
i got the notes right and didn't stop, but the sound is a bit off
will try to perfect everything by next week :)
as i just said, is 1 ferrero rocher at first,
but i kept annoying and disturbing him for 1 more,
then he just gave to shut me up=.=

and yeah, shuqing told celine about FBT/FCL!!
but celine alr guess it before she tell her lahh
but still, shuqing why you tell her!!
then there were this part when she kept touching my leg=.=
me: why you keep touching my leg!? why molest me!
shuqing: where got molest you, if molest also molest evangeline lahh,
her leg whiter than yours.
me: but you go for fatter leg not whiter leg!
okay, we are seriously lame. hah
but this make co fun :)

wonder what will happen after the senior leaves
both in standard and in entertainment.
i will miss them

sorry elizabeth chee, no time for the dedication
next post=.=

2009-02-10T19:39:00.032+08:00

random photos at korea

don't really remember what happened on each day

too long alr lahh.

so not much explaination :)

the president house
bro
bro and uncle

me! wear until so thick=.=

( this is the shoes which got stolen)
the number of baggage back hk, 11=.=
1 trolley go, 2 trolley back. lol
the sunrise!
i love this pic. SO NICE!
vending machine selling cigarette, cool lahh
the monday-fri writing is like weird

bbq! so vegetarian can

they only bbq pork and chicken.

bro

look so emo?

hope he roll down, hah

like a child!

like advertisement=.=

was too bored.

me! fun!

bro so big size. LOL

the 2 person there look a bit gay.

the place for ice skiing

the theme park, not really fun. too crowded

McDonald's

random pic :)

foodddd! duck meat i think.

kimchi school :)

can try on, but obviously i didn't

i made this !

the ingredients

the other ppl.

uncle and auntie. first time see them wear apron, hah

i am lame. the recycling bins.

forgot what is this alr

don't know the name. but yeah, where the emperor stay last time.

2009-02-04T21:16:00.003+08:00

hah, okay i am back!
which is obvious enough.
my blog is like so died
last post is like 21jan? lol

something shocking just happened.
for me it is lahh. lol
big aunt: you want supper tonight?
me: huh?
big aunt: you will be rushing your hw tonight again right?
me: yeah, most probably
big aunt: is nice to have supper and do work at the same time.
i was so shocked lahh, didn't expect her to be so good suddenly=.=

the science class test today was terrible
i think i will fail which i hope not
missing lessons for 4 days is not good.

after school went to watch the wedding game with pei wen
i tot watch bride wars=.=
but i slept most of it
which make me don't understand the story at all
only know in the end they became real couple. lol

the first thing i do when i reach home today was sleep!
slept 3 hours.
i almost slept during assemble today can
too tired already.
knew this will happen so drink coffee before going to school
lucky arhh.
hope i don't sleep during chapel tmr. lol
really very little rest the past few days
not a day i sleep for more than 3 hours the past 2 days
monday night rush H.E
yesterday night rush english and maths
today maths again and chinese, hais
and at korea not a day sleep more than 5 hours.
is good that i can survive till now. hah
but surviving on coffee most of the time :)

no time to post already, need to rush hw=.=
next post will update on
- photos taken in korea and hk
- the dedication to elizabeth (if have time or next next post)=.=

2009-01-21T21:08:00.005+08:00

today was really fun
sound like i always say that when there is co?
but yes, that is the part that made my day.
i really love the people there.
i love co.

sectional today!
had great fun talking to them!
or rather her only, because only shuqing came. lol
then we were like slacking and reading the harvest at first
looking at the different classes,
saying who and who together, who like who, this, that and blah
i feel bad but i found out a lot.
but soon got into the mood to practice
quite productive :)
then that was this part when justin ask me
justin: your today sectional?
me: look at shuqing and ask. today we sectional?
shuqing: don't know
me tell justin: don't know.
the whole section only 2 person came, so sectional?
don't know. lol
we were outside the room then, after the other section leaves
we went me.
talked about some very private things with shuqing
and justin tot we talking about him=.=
because we were like talking softly and laughing loudly. hah
then when we finally stopped, he ask us why suddenly so quiet=.=

after that homed with them.
and i finally told justin that he had been pronouncing my name wrongly
then the whole group started making fun of my name.
dessert lahh, green man lahh, lol!
and he kept showing off to me the MANY photos of him in the harvest.
thickskin.

still can't stop laughing at the bb page.

2009-01-17T15:32:00.002+08:00

We cannot change Yesterday -- that is quite clear.
Or begin on Tomorrow until it is here:
So all that remains, both for you and for me,
Is to make each Today just as sweet as it can be.

saw this online.

2009-01-10T21:37:00.006+08:00

was tired like what today.
went for the cca open house to help out in the morning
it would be okay if there were at least some achievements
but it was really a disappointment.
at least for my section, it was.

so woke up at 6.15am
was suppose to meet umbrella at 7.15am
but he said he might not come, so didn't really bother about that
reached school and he was really late.
and WITHOUT my breakfast.
but yeah, i was late too.
then , justin told me and shiying to arrange the chairs at Ms Wong 's homerm
some ppl came along too
chatted and played in the room. lol
till about 8.30am then the sec 1s came.
the presentation by justin was really like how janice say it will be
boring and lame.
then was game time,
but me and some other ppl went to paste posters around the school
places like vending machine and toilet doors=.=
after that the sec 1s went co room to try on the instruments
daohan wasn't there so no demo for dizi
but we just kept asking them to blow while we teach
unbelievable, i am teaching ppl to play dizi. lol
that was this mcs girl who got forced by me to join co.
she said she will ask her parents first.
she is in tennis.
then i was like tennis fee very ex and blah blah blah.
and i didn't know that co have conductor fee to pay also=.=
$120 a year. lol
then i was walking around the school with dizi and giving out flyers with sq
but justin is like gave most of them alr=.=
there was this part when i give flyers to a sec1 ncc person.
then the ncc senior who was nearby was like banging the table=.=
but is okay lahh, because when i asked that sec1 guy is he interested in music
and he said no. so loudly somemore. lol
feel like telling that ncc senior don't worry. hah
just walked around pull ppl to join co
actually i did pull one from choir, but guess what?
she say that dizi is difficult to play and went to percussion=.=
nothing much alr.
but overall, today was a fun day:)

is really very disappointing to see that no one want to join dizi
and that i even got scolded by justin for pressurizing the sec 1s to join dizi
but dizi seriously need ppl now.
i know we have more than enough ppl.
but when the seniors leave, we will be left with nothing.
7 person in dizi now.
me and sung chang can't play
daohan, shuqing and evengeline leaving
jonathan and yusheng always pon.
only left with 2 that is the most junior.
we need new sec1s to take over the seniors.
they need not know how to play.
is like they can just learn from the seniors first.
because after they leave, even if the conductor give us new member, that won't help at all.
that won't be seniors to to help them alr.
me and sungchang won't be able to help them.
and whats more is that the dizi teacher might not be teaching us after the syf
so if the juniors come in after the seniors leave
then there will be no teacher and senior to help them
this will just make dizi worst. and it is alr so bad now.
just take it that the conductor will give us new member at the start of the year.
but since they didn't join dizi themselves, means they won't feel happy in dizi
that will just result in them ponning.
just hope that when there are new member, they are willing to learn and not pon.

2009-01-08T21:17:00.003+08:00

ohh man, today was fun!
i love my section, section, section.
shuqing, daohan and sungchang!
they make co funnnnnnnn.
not really fun, but better than nothing!

practice a lot during sectional today.
finally know what part i am playing, same as sungchang.
and like i am playing real badly now.
lots to catch up for syf.
that were this part when me and SC went to the canteen to get a drink.
he did something real embarrassing.
but i am not going to say it, i am not that bad okay.
and daohan is like grandfather.
nag and nag and nag=.=
shuqing is the best.
i love talking to her!

found out a lot today
really want to thank the few people who helped me.
i love them.

2009-01-07T21:24:00.009+08:00

i hate my best friend, unbelievable
had this feeling long ago.
but is strong now.

Tracy lo, i miss you so much man
you are the only one i can trust now.
please don't leave me.
and also don't be like them.
please, i beg you.

[Edited:
ohh man, i am happy now!
was super emo just now
called tracy and talked.
but she say call me back later, what a friend!
so went to watch 鐵甲無敵獎門人
laugh till i go mad. happy!
i am happy happy happy happy. hah!] 10.41pm

[Edited:
maybe they are right,
maybe i was really doing what they said i was.
i don't know...] 11.26pm

2009-01-05T21:27:00.007+08:00

you play with my heart
you play with my mind
but i miss you finally

i am feeling sad, really
people say things will become better when it reach the worst
but it is not getting any better.
maybe because it is still not the worst yet?
i am already suffering so much now and it's still not the worst.
what will happen when that time come.
deep in thought.

i need to cry. i need to let out my emotions.

2008-12-19T22:40:00.018+08:00

i lost my phone, like AGAIN
but this time at Hong Kong
and this time was worse
pickpocket
lost 2 phones in a year, both only use for 3 months
unbelievable
reported to the police
wasted 4 hours at the police station
but was really a good experience
and also make me understand how useless the HK police is.

the story.
cousins+brother+me was suppose to meet for movie
i was happily listening to music when crossing the road then
suddenly the music stopped playing,
feel my pocket for the phone, missing
stoned for awhile, and started looking around for it
(regretted not screaming, sad.)
sit on the road and cry for like 15mins
then decided to call the police
we called, like really call 999=.=
they were like super rude and was like scolding my cousin
aren't they suppose to serve us?
although this wasn't really important
less then 5 mins, the police arrive (was really fast)
2 police car (4 police each), and 4 more police who was nearby
all came and all after a missing phone=.=
something so unimportant but so many police
something real important and you don't see them at all
everyone was looking and we were really embarrassed can
they ask for description rudely and left
but sad, can't really describe the man much, too shocked to remember.
leaving one police car behind
they drive us around looking for suspicious looking man
after which back to the police station
then while calling and waiting for the police before that,
cousin+bro went to McDonald's to buy food
we were chatting and eating on the police car like it was our car=.=
and my cousin wanted to take a photo
as she say it is hard to get a chance to sit in a police car, lame her
but she sit in a police car before for the same reason
that is where i know from, the calling police thing=.=
they drive us first to Castle peak police station (CPPS)
then Tuen Mun police station (TMPS)
because first, they say the place belong to CPPS
next, they say the place belong to TMPS
so in the end went TMPS, but the place really belong to CPPS=.=
they even make my mum go to the police station because i am underage
just to be the witness when i file the report
and they ask my cousins and brother to leave themselves
when they take me and mum to TMPS
the officer was really rude, speaking vulgarity right in front of us
he even asked me for sweet=.=
but he is nice and funny lahh.
the whole thing lasted for 4 hours and we didn't get to watch the movie
homed and blogging now.

talking about the 2 missing phones
i was more sad the other time rather than this
maybe because i reported to the police this time
at least i know there is chance to find the thief
i did nothing the other time, just cry and forgot about it
the police said even if i get it back, it will be 1 year later
1 year after the phone was found, as it will be used in court all that.
and also i must be in court to charge him,
but seriously, if that day comes, i will be in SG alr
if i am not there, he will be let out free.
what is the use of reporting actually.
pointless.
they say the chance of finding it back is only20%-30%
and the officer was like everything in there will be deleted too.
but i was like,
having hopes to get it back and recover the memory is better than nothing
even half of the memory is better than nothing.
i have backup the other time when i lost my phone, but this time
nothing at all.

will blog about what i did in HK the past weeks in the next post.

2008-12-14T23:57:00.007+08:00

chinning, maly, me, chinto
the four of us.

didn't know what was i doing then
chinning, grandma, chinto, maly, wingyi {cousin}
i wasn't born yet, HAHA

2008-12-10T07:00:00.006+08:00

Tracy Lo!!
call me back when you read this!
i tried calling and replying your msg but all can't.
always call rejected and sending failed
both your no and sg no also!
i tried all the phone i can find alr!
my sis/house/mum/dad/grandma house phone
all use but just can't get thru
the problem is with your phone!
call me! don't sms!
and why everytime sms my sg no=.=
i can't reply using that no, very ex!
call me soon!

2008-12-08T23:57:00.014+08:00

1. Who is the person who tagged you?
becky!
2. Relationship between you and her?
good friends, ex-classmate:)
3. Five impression of her?
nice, friendly, smart, strict, caring!
4. If she becomes your enemy , will you?
don't think so:)
5. What would you like to say to the person you like very much?
i love you. HAHA
6. Characteristic I like about myself?
don't know
7. Characteristic i hate about myself?
everything
8. For the person you hate you say?
be nice to each other, can we?
9. What do people feel about you?
hyper active?
10. Your crush
everyone know who=.=
11. Pass this to 10 ppl :
(cannot pass it again to the person who passed to you huh ? )
1. jasmine
2. faith
3. elizabeth
4. rkycia
5. aileen
6. monique
7. tsy
8. celine
9. zoey
10. chinto. LOL
12. If 5 & 7 were tgt?
they are both girls=.=
13. What does 5 like?
don't know
14. What colour does number 9 like?
??
15. Say something about number 8?
co member!
16. Who is number 2?
faith.
17. Talk about number 3?
HAHA! co mate and classmate! first few good friend in phs
18. Who's number 10's best friend?
sarah, darren and jingren
19. Who is the sexiest among the 10 people?
...
20. What colour does 4 like?
black? not sure
21. Is 4 single?
hmm, no.
22. Your relationship with number 1?
classmate, first few good friend in phs:)
23. Are 5 & 6 bestfriends ?
shall be.
24. 9's surname?
tan
25. 7's nickname?
tsy?
26. Say something to 8
you are a nice friend!
27. Say something to help 9.
huh? as in?
28. Who does number 1 admire?
cp=.=
29. Where does number 1 lives?
sin ming
30. Does 10 of them know who you like?
i think so
31. Say something to 6 when you see her?
i miss you!
32. 10's spouse ?
=.=
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hah, the second time i use comp in hk
mum don't allow me to use too often
she say i alr use so much in sg, is time to take a break.
surprisingly, i can live without comp for so many days
but i think i will ask to use comp more often:)
and by not using the comp, it gave me much time to think about my life
my useless and meaningless life.

i just love hk
this is where i feel home
on the very first day, the moment i arrive back at the airport
i alr sense the difference from me being in sg and hk
i feel close, familiar to almost everyone
especially when i hear people speaking the same language
cantonese.
the language i am born with
the language my family speak
the language i love the most.
you will never know how much you miss your home until you leave it
leave it for a long time
6 and a half years in sg
almost as much as the time i live in hk
but it just feel differently.
a complete difference.

finally did the quiz becky told me too.

"Life is just one damned thing
after another."-Elbert Hubbard

2008-11-27T23:49:00.004+08:00

"Everything comes too late for
those who only wait."-Elbert Hubbard

2008-11-25T23:10:00.019+08:00

things to be done/want to do/want to be done before i leave for HK [29/11]
1. ~~say bye to percussion~~
2. can play the syf song [dizi]
3. ~~a pass for dizi exam, better still a merit~~
4. ~~get ready all textbooks for next year~~
5. finish all holiday homework
6. finish all 4 books from the library [a bit impossible]
7. buy a jacket and long pants [anyone free to go with me, leave a tag]
8. irritate justin chua again
9. finish all the shows borrowed from my big auntie [3 drama=.=]
10. pack my room
11. present to get to him
12. confidence to play instruments in front of ppl [dizi]
13. early/on time for co + sectional [ 5 practice] (added sectional next fri)
14. eat beef noodle, pepper lunch and ~~laksa~~ [must do. HAHA]
15. ~~movie with tracy and tsy~~
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today was okay
the exam was super terrible
but the co chalet is not bad

i thought i failed the exam, but pass
might have changes, i don't care, just take it i will surely pass!
was too nervous to blow at all
play the first song and the tester told me to skip it
can't finish the song, thought sure fail
lucky still pass in the end!
nervous till i actually cried before the exam
and Sung Chang is useless
only know how to call me go toilet and cry=.=
he is super terrible can
suppose to meet for breakfast at 11am
i reached at 10.57 and thought
that i was finally early for meeting
and guess what? he reached at 10.43am=.=
and when we finally meet, he told me he already had his breakfast
worse still, when we were walking to NAFA
he keep calling me to walking faster and that i am super slow
after we reached, ask him go breakfast with me and in the end we only had drinks
after that called him for lunch and he was like
i don't have any relationship with you, you also not my family,
why have lunch with you
i almost crop him up into pieces can!
then while we were practising, some pro people got in to the room
and he didn't dare to play in front of them
i didn't dare at first but still did in the end okay
LIANG SUNG CHANG IS USELESS!
he only know how to look at pretty girls=.=
then after the exam he just left, didn't even wait for me
i hate him!

then there was this part at the registration
person: what is your name?
me: chintung
person: i can't find it, repeat your name pls.
me: chintung
person: in english?
me: FUNG CHIN TUNG!
i was already super moody and because of that even more pissed.

after took mrt to chalet
couldn't find it at first
called people like Shuqing and Elizabeth and all never answer
lucky saw Justin+group while walking aimlessly
they were the last from the amazing race. lol
went to chalet and whine to Elizabeth how i failed my exam
didn't know i pass it then, in the end sms lao shi and found out the results
was happy like mad!
nothing much there, just kept playing cards and watch tv=.=
then i kept losing in the game cheat
is because i am too innocent okay
bbq after that, didn't eat much
2 cups od drinks, 2 chicken wing, 3 mush mallow, 2 sotong ball, a piece of cake, a plate of noodle
i still can remember what i eat+drink lorhh=.=
then me and Elizabeth miss out the cake cutting part
because we were walking outside, a bit regret now. lol
after that taxi to AMKhub with Elizabeth, Shiying and a guy
then home.

sad thing about that day is i didn't get a chance to irritate Justin!!

"If I am anything, which I highly
doubt, I have made myself so by hard work."-Isaac Newton

2008-11-24T18:14:00.004+08:00

okay, great
i am feeling super scared now
less than 24hours to my dizi exam
ohh, don't be nervous pls!

but yeah, a pass is difficult for me
lao shi said most people who bring score into the exam venue failed
and, i didn't memorise it!
they said will only minus marks at first!
tried memorising, but only a few lines get into my head=.=
Shuqing and Evangeline think they will fail
then how about me?
they play like much more better than me can.
just hope for the best.

yesterday was crazy
met Shuqing and Evangeline at 9am
was late for 15mins again=.=
took a bus to NAFA
practice dizi from 10.30am-1.30pm
walked to tuition, about 20mins walk
had lunch while walking
tuition from about 2pm-3.45pm
walked back to NAFA
dizi again from 4.10pm-6pm=.=
was tired like mad. 5hours of dizi

then while i was practicing, there was this few kids who came into the room
i call them kids because they are like from 7-10 years old
they are waiting for the exam then
and, the way they play is like much more better than me!
they memorised the score also
i feel super embarrassed can
only dare to play after they left, like 30mins later
sad lahh

today is just another crazy day
had co+sectional today
sectional from 10am-1pm
then co from 2pm-5pm
kept practicing during sectional
but slacked away half of co
went out to practice the exam song during other half with Sung Chang
he slacked a lot during sectional and again during co
he is like so confident lorhh, but i don't think he play that well=.=
backed to co room and shuqing said we play very loud
okay, super embarrassed
i thought they won't hear as we were at the other end of 3rd floor

i am off to dinner now:)

"A leader is a dealer in
hope."-Napoleon Bonaparte

2008-11-22T23:33:00.006+08:00

things to be done/want to do/want to be done before i leave for HK [29/11]
1. ~~say bye to percussion~~
2. can play the syf song [dizi]
3. a pass for dizi exam, better still a merit
4. ~~get ready all textbooks for next year~~
5. finish all holiday homework
6. finish all 4 books from the library [a bit impossible]
7. buy a jacket and long pants [anyone free to go with me, leave a tag]
8. irritate justin chua again
9. finish all the shows borrowed from my big auntie [3 drama=.=]
10. pack my room
11. present to get to him
12. confidence to play instruments in front of ppl [dizi]
13. early/on time for co + sectional [ 5 practice] (added sectional next fri)
14. eat beef noodle, pepper lunch and ~~laksa~~ [must do. HAHA]
15. ~~movie with tracy and tsy~~
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movie with tracy and tsy today
my bro came along, extra him
watched madagascar 2
the show is super funny and nice can
but not much of a story, bad storyline
i kept laughing during the movie
like what happened during butterfly lovers, lol
bro did the same
this is a family thing, i am not weird okay
movie at 5.30pm
suppose to meet at 4.30pm but i reached at 5.37pm=.=
tracy was super pissed. haha
nothing about tsy, maybe because she watched it before
brought food and parted after the movie

suppose to meet big auntie and uncle at orchard
but they alr wasn't there we called them
went marina square to eat and then home.

"Time, which changes people, does not alter the
image we have retained of them."-Marcel Proust

2008-11-21T22:31:00.015+08:00

things to be done/want to do/want to be done before i leave for HK [29/11]
1. ~~say bye to percussion~~
2. can play the syf song [dizi]
3. a pass for dizi exam, better still a merit
~~4. get ready all textbooks for next year~~
5. finish all holiday homework
6. finish all 4 books from the library [a bit impossible]
7. buy a jacket and long pants [anyone free to go with me, leave a tag]
8. irritate justin chua again
9. finish all the shows borrowed from my big auntie [3 drama=.=]
10. pack my room
11. present to get to him
12. confidence to play instruments in front of ppl [dizi]
13. early/on time for co + sectional [ 5 practice] (added sectional next fri)
14. eat beef noodle, pepper lunch and ~~laksa~~ [must do. HAHA]
15. movie with tracy and tsy
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today is both a fun and sad day
got real bad scolding from dizi lao shi
she said my blowing went bad
just from wed to today
i really feel very sad
i hope i can at least maintain till the exam date
i am not going to fail it

went woodlands with Shuqing and Evangeline after sectional
had thai food, was nice man!
slacked around, went to take a look at disc
and Shuqing is in love with HK drama can=.=
she can almost remember every character from all shows, pro!
had this plan to make all dizi players pon co
almost succeeded
but they left their dizi at the co room, so have to go back and take
but by the time we reach wong lao shi alr arrived
wasted 30mins outside the co room to decide pon or not
so i was late, bye to no.13
heard from outside the room that the lao shi ask is it our school no dizi players. lol
went in the end
lucky i went, i got change back to dizi!
and wong lao shi said that i am very hyper
like to laugh when i do something wrong
am i really like that? lol
and yeah, i was telling ppl that Dao Han cheated my feelings=.=
then i took the receipt for his drum stand
was funny lahh
went out of co room at the last 1 hour to practise exam piece

i can't believe i almost pon co today.

"Men are born to succeed, not fail."-Henry Thoreau

2008-11-19T22:35:00.017+08:00

things to be done/want to do/want to be done before i leave for HK [29/11]
1. say bye to percussion
2. can play the syf song [dizi]
3. a pass for dizi exam, better still a merit
~~4. get ready all textbooks for next year~~
5. finish all holiday homework
6. finish all 4 books from the library [a bit impossible]
7. buy a jacket and long pants [anyone free to go with me, leave a tag]
8. irritate justin chua again
9. finish all the shows borrowed from my big auntie [3 shows=.=]
10. pack my room
11. present to get to him
12. confidence to play instruments in front of ppl [dizi + percussion]
13. early/on time for co + sectional [ 5 practice] (added sectional next fri)
14. eat beef noodle, pepper lunch and ~~laksa~~ [must do. HAHA]
15. movie with tracy, mmh and tsy
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sectional today was funnn!
i was late by 15mins=.=
but i am still on time because the teacher was even later
practise the exam piece
and the teacher said i improve!
i think encouragement work best on me:)
asked the teacher about me going back to dizi
and the teacher was shocked
she didn't know that they change me to percussion=.=
i will must probably be back to dizi by fri
but have to see the sectional in the morning first
can play or not all that
i will be playing the same part as Sung Chang if i do
i love that dizi better than the longer one. HAHA
i am so happyyyyyyyyy!

went with Shuqing to buy books after sectional
saw tymon, he was like telling me bryan is there=.=
he is like even more excited than me lahh.
all books done
but i brought 2 same music textbook by mistake
sold it to faith, lucky me
chatted a lot with Shuqing at AMK mrt
found out a lot!

after that met bro at J8
went to do something on the psp
saw faith while waiting
i dun think her bro is that cute/hot lahh!
then united square with bro for laksa
yummyyyyyyyyyyy!
beef noodle another day;D
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then just now we were having this convo
and my my bro was the one talking to them=.=
NEWater 6 more days, dizi exam.
rooney no.10
[爱Jasmine~] says pencil number 16(: C-H-O-C-O-L-A-T-E-S(:
ohh.
its the PS syndrome which im suffering from withdrawal symptoms
wowzeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
its the PS syndrome which im suffering from withdrawal symptoms
number 13 is the korean guy
NEWater 6 more days, dizi exam.
yes
NEWater 6 more days, dizi exam.
park
its the PS syndrome which im suffering from withdrawal symptoms
(:
[爱Jasmine~] says pencil number 16(: C-H-O-C-O-L-A-T-E-S(:
lols all korean guys all park park park one
NEWater 6 more days, dizi exam.
bishan park?

hahah! i dun know why
but i just find it funny. LOL

"To conquer fear is the beginning of
wisdom."-Bertrand Russell

2008-11-18T03:32:00.020+08:00

things to be done/want to do/want to be done before i leave for HK [29/11]
1. say bye to percussion
2. can play the syf song [dizi]
3. a pass for dizi exam, better still a merit
4. get ready all textbooks for next year
5. finish all holiday homework
6. finish all 4 books from the library [a bit impossible]
7. buy a jacket and long pants [anyone free to go with me, leave a tag]
8. irritate justin chua again
9. finish all the shows borrowed from my big auntie [3 shows=.=]
10. pack my room
11. present to get to him
12. confidence to play instruments in front of ppl [dizi + percussion]
13. early/on time for co + sectional [ 4 practice]
14. eat beef noodle, pepper lunch and laksa [most do. HAHA]
15. movie with tracy, mmh and tsy
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is 3++ now, and i am still feeling awake=.=
hah, a rather long to do list
but most of it is just crap, like no.8
i just love it. HAHA

co today was super boring,
only get to hit the instruments at the last 10mins
and only one time was successfully done
thanks to Dao Han.
there was this part when the instructor ask every dizi player to play alone
even the always pon one.
and yes, he left me out.
i felt like screaming to them at that point that i am in too
but i just don't dare
tried asking Dao Han and Shuqing to help
they ask me to it myself...
so now, dun think i can go back until syf is over

i was half an hour late for last friday practice
teachers didn't scold and nothing happened
and yeah, they change me to percussion!!
so sad lahh, i love dizi can
i want to go back to my section!
was super embarrassed too,
because i took super long to know how to play

nothing much happened when my mum was in SG
just eat, sleep and watch shows the whole time
she went back on sunday morning
i only slept for 1 hour and alr have to wake up to send her to the airport
home after that and sleep
was 1 hour late for tuition. LOL

"We should not let our fears hold us back from pursuing our
hopes."-John F. Kennedy

2008-11-13T20:03:00.001+08:00

now i know i indirectly cause him to do that!!
howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww?

2008-11-13T19:37:00.003+08:00

something serious happened to my brother
i don't know, i am feeling very weird now
i shall be feeling sad or even scare
but i just can't make up my emotions
i feel like crying
my mother will be coming from HK to see my bro tmr
i am thinking to pon co
i don't know
this incident just make the whole family sad
why did he do that?

2008-11-12T23:59:00.004+08:00

today was really wonderful
very long since i last met my pri school friends
and i really enjoyed myself much!
went back to mcs for grad night
is just like a copy of our year can
like practically the same?
went back with tracy, rkycia and liau
met faith in school
must really thanks her, or we will be like can't even go in?
liau and rkycia was like arguing with the guards
went in in the end
but we wasn't allowed to eat anything=.=
we left before it ended
and went to eat!
chatted a lot
really catch up lots with them
had on nice chat with tracy on the bus home:)
is just like a summary, nothing much.

"A friend is the hope of the
heart."-Ralph Waldo Emerson

1month+2days

2008-11-08T23:04:00.019+08:00

hahahahaha!
just feel like telling everyone that Sung Chang broke his dizi too
it broke just the same way as mine.
i am bad, i am actually feeling happy.
and i just can't stop laughing.
he was spinning it and it just dropped on the floor
and went bye bye. lol

talking about breaking things,
my bro broke his laptop
as in drop it on the floor and break it.
and now he is like using my comp every single moment=.=

11nov is like coming real soon
i am planning to wish him happy birthday at 12 sharp
really hope he can reply my msg
when can he stop ignoring me?
saddddddddddddddddddddd.
and thanks to chenxi for helping me:)

25nov!
i am still not prepared at all
i am like practising everyday now
and my bro just like to say that is noise pollution=.=
if i can blow in just a short time then no need practise alr!!

ohh yeah, my auntie praise me today.
she say that she is happy there is improvement for most subjects.
so happy!
she say she is going to treat me dinner!
i love to eat a lot. haha
actually i do love getting praised by people.
i am going to work harder the next time to get more praise
and more free dinnerrrrrrrrrr!

"The world is full of suffering. It is also full
of overcoming it."-Helen Keller

2008-11-04T18:09:00.037+08:00

ohhhh. happyyyyyyy!
after being emo/sad for so long
i am feeling super happy now!
this happiness totally cover up the sadness from that incident
there will be times that we will be sad
but after sadness, there will sure be happiness
like sunshine after rain:)

finally a happy post after a few weeks yeah?
think i was really affected by that incident
but yeah, i am feeling good and happy now
maybe getting real hurt at a time is better than getting hurt for many time?
at least i think so.
i guess i lost all that feeling for him alr?
it will be a good thing anyway:)
be happy for me people.

lol. i took 3 and a half hours reading a person blog just now
i read all the posts and really found out a lot.
that person really changed a lot over the years
but i do agree with what he say about somethings
and i think i experience the same thing as him.

dizi exam on 25nov
i must prepare real hard for it.
i know i will pass, i know i will.
have confidence.

had environment camp today and ytd
or rather only ytd,
i pon today=.=
because today is more of group work which will be boring
was fun and great on the first day!
we went to many place
jurong island, hortpack, VOPAK water treatment plant
the best one is jurong island
learn a lot:)
and yeah, mrs lau was super embarrassed
she asked us how many island is jurong island made up of
people say is 7 but she said is 5
then in the end was really 7=.=
what a teacher she is. lol
hmm, then the hortpark is just like plant everywhere?
there was is guide that guide us around the park
and every new plant she bring us to,
i will be like, is the fruits edible, can i eat it?
until there is really one that can be eaten
but i didn't eat it in the end
because they say that after eating it for about half an hour
every sour thing will become sweet.
no one ate it i think. lol
nothing much at the VOPAK water treatment plant
just look around and learnt how they treat wastewater?
which i seriously don't understand at all. lol
then there was this part that we need to wear a helmet
i was wearing that helmet,
then that 3agape person come and hit my head for no reason=.=
that girl, xinyi if i am not wrong.
the camp ended at six.
went bbt after that with pei wen and syafiqah
the 2 new friend i made!
they are really niceeeeeeeeeeee!
homed and slept till the next morning:)

"Even a happy life cannot be without a
measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."-Carl Jung

2008-11-01T20:41:00.007+08:00

happy birthday Tymon Toh!

i am not going to get you a present because you didn't get me one. lol

yeah, don't everytime first in class lahh. must give others a chance

hmm, friends forever yeah?

you will be going to another class next year, but must still meet and talk okay.

haiya, nice having you as a friend lahh!

(don't think you will read this, but yeah)

2008-10-30T01:38:00.004+08:00

i am sorry if i show any of you attitude.
i think i have became somewhat emotionless
for some reason, i just show people attitude for no right reason at all
maybe because i was affected by that emotionless person?
faith, i think i showed you attitude today.
i just want to say sorry.
i am sorry:)

2008-10-25T23:18:00.007+08:00

i seriously think i am weird now.
what is happening?
i was trying to fake happy the whole of today
i looked happy on the outside, but the inside?
i am not sure.
i kept using the comp this few days, without stop
last time, i will just on it to listen to music
but now, i can't stop using it.
whenever i am not using it, i will think of what happened that day
it might be just a small incident that happened
but it affected me a lot a lot.
whenever i think of it, i will feel like crying.
something is seriously wrong now.
why can't he just give me fake hope?
i will be happier that way.
i hate to face reality
i hope i didn't call jasmine to ask on that day,
so i can still fake myself and dream that everything will change for the better....

i love co very very much.

2008-10-24T22:02:00.017+08:00

i love co!

back to super loving it now.

especially my section.

i love co because of them!

not a wrong choice of cca after all:]

went back to school today for co
had sectional, only the dizi people

but was super funny lahh
we kept crapping
the best part is to talk with them
and not to practise

btw, only 3 people including me from dizi came today=.=

shuqing and sungchang

the dizi people went to the music room for sectional

and i did something terrible. HAHA!
sectional starts at 2pm
but went to school at 1pm to have lunch with eliz
met xinwei on the way
then she came along with us, but she was reading when we were eating=.=
late for co by about 15mins i guess?
but i will still be on time on the list.
because i was only late for sectional. lol
i am finally in the SYF song!
i will be taking over shuqing:]
ohh yeah! the teacher said that i improved!
i am so happyyyyyyyyyyyy.
but she say i have to be more confident...
confirmed the songs for the exam alr
i will really have to work for my goal!

"We must never be
afraid to go too far, for success lies just beyond."-Marcel Proust

2008-10-23T23:19:00.010+08:00

i can just throw away the present, seriously
lucky i forgot to bring it to school today.
lucky i didn't pass it to chenxi to pass it to him.
thanks a lot Bryan Ng Wei Hsiang.
i learnt a important life lesson.

why will i fall for a heartless soul like you?!

2 weeks + 1 day = i miss you lots.

2008-10-21T23:51:00.012+08:00

today is a good dayyyyy!
because i saw him:)
is only a while in the canteen,
but i am already happy with it.
i didn't get a chance to talk to him yet
but if edwin wong really do it as planned
i will get a chance to talk to him. yay!
but if edwin really do it, i hope he have time to get a new one
i don't want to screw up his o level.
not properly attired not allowed to take the exam right?
hope everything goes as planned...

school is super boring after exam
nothing much to do but just slack around :(
we watched a movie in class today,
but me and jasmine was sleeping the whole time
(i think i woke her up by trying to talk to her when she is asleep. lol)
nothing much happened in class.

ohh yeah, we got back something on cca today
THEY SAY THAT MY ATTENDANCE FOR CO IS LESS THAN 50%!
how can it be?!
i was only absent for once, and A FEW times late.
then i was in the canteen after school looking for justin
and you know what? i was looking for a person that is absent=.=
ask him in the end on msn
and my attendance was higher than 75%!
!#$%^&*()_+
after that talk/argue with gerald teo about his STUPID results and his paper.

then homed.
not really so because me and faith went to j8 for lunch in the end=.=
eat and buy presents for bryan,
am thinking now how to give it to him. lol
thinking to ask chenxi to help me
hope everything go well:)

"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite
hope."-Martin Luther King Jr.

2 weeks already, i miss you.

2008-10-20T22:10:00.008+08:00

the school is only so small
but is it already so hard to meet someone
if only i walk up to the music room earlier,
i will see him.
if 2 person is not fated, even if there are only 3 classrooms
they won't meet too.
seriously, i tried looking for you in school,
but i don't see you.
last time when i always see you, i will try to hide
when now i don't see you at all, i want to see you badly.
the feeling of knowing you are in school but not able to see you... is terrible.
i thought that i have gotten over you,
but the fact is, i can't forget you.
maybe without having you in my life will be the best thing
but at the same time, i am happy that you did came into my life..
because you are my happy memory.

i seriously think co sucks now
i don't know, i just hate it
for almost every practice, all i do is just sit there
when can i join in the song?
i really think it is a waste of time.
i could have spend that time doing something else
something more useful.
next month will be my dizi exam,
i am not prepared at all
i can't even play a single piece of the exam song properly
do i really suck in it so much?
i am only using half a year to catch up with ppl
they learnt it at the start of the year
or for even some, a few years
why am i so stupid to take the grade 3 exam in just 6 months?
you think you are very talented is it?
you are not.
i can't stand it alr. i know i can't do it
i gave up, is hopeless.

"The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the
ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes." -Thomas
Hardy

2008-10-17T21:57:00.012+08:00

this few days was okayyyyy
lots happened but didn't really have the mood to blog.
let me blog about this few days in this post okay.

today was funnyyyy
had cyberwellness in the morning
was fun actually
i kept crapping and laughing at first
but after that ms tang kept looking so i shut up lorhh
ohh yeah, dick's phone rang in class!
like omg? then ms tang pick up the phone
she still answer with that kind of irritating voice=.=

after school went to marina square with faith, jasmine and eliz
was looking for present to buy for mrs tan cause she is leaving
found a brooch and it is nice(:
after that eat and crap for hours there=.=
ohh yeah! i called bryan but i only dare to say hello
and i put down the phone
it sounded not so like him
or maybe i am wrong? i don't really know his voice=.=
siannn, mood change so went home
actually wanted to hair but yeah, no mood.

thursday was tiring

had treetop walk in the morning.
was super tiring can
i think it was more than 5km lorhh!
the bridge was fun!
was okay high above ground?
i kept looking down
is much more exciting like that!

then while i was walking like mad, grace sms me
grace: hiiex! long...time nvr tolk.
me: i am at the natural reserve. walking like mad with the class. more than 5km alr lorhh.
grace: so lucky. all p6 only go macRitchie
she call that lucky?
i totally don't know how to react can!

after that was the mind mapping thingy
was alr super tired, how to concentrate?!
then i was carrying my bag the whole time, lazy to take it out
the teacher was like
'girl, take off your bag, i want everyone to be comfortable here'
lol? everyone turn back and look at me can!
so paiseh!

wanted to go bugis at first, but was too tired so went home and sleep=.=

wednesday was funnnnn.
went orchard with Faith.
forgot what happened to Eliz and Jas. lol
we did lots of stupid things.
when we just reached, i told faith try locating the place for the pen
while i give instructions
she found it like in 5mins?
the guys in our class is....

after that we saw this book in Kinokuniya about Hong Kong.
they teach people of the common phrases used
example: chee saw haih be do a.
people we know cantonese will be thinking
got this phrase mehh
have, the meaning is
meaning: where is the toilet=.=
the real phrase where got sound like that one!

and faith was trying to make me jealous
lets see who will be the one that is jealous in the end ;D

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do,
something to love, and something to hope for." -Joseph Addison

2008-10-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Jasmine Koh!

hey! a year older alr.
fun being infected by me hah. didn't have time to get a present for you.
or rather didn't get a present for all of you, eliz and faith too.
maybe i will get presents for you people when i am back in HK okay.
wait for the nice present yeah ;D

2008-10-14T22:14:00.004+08:00

this few days was okayyyy.
notice i like to start my posts this sentence.
i am Christopher. i like things to be in order. lol

i was overall happy with my results
other than science and geog
!#$%^&*()
it was terrible okay.
i was still okay for geog, because i am always bad at it
but science, i totally lost hope.
it was my best subject during mid-year
but now, the worst.
totally speechless.

there was this 'competition' happening at my home
my uncle went around counting the number of towels used
who use the most and things like that
the winner will be rewarded with days of nagging=.=
my bro and i won!
okayyy, that is so lame.
then few days ago, i was having this conversation with my big auntie
big auntie: people with long and big ears will normally have long life.
me: huh! that means i will die early?!
big auntie: *thinking why i said that*
me: i have small ears!
another lame one. lol

back about today:)
went to eat with tymon and eliz after school
it will sure be crappy with tymon
we all ate the same thing.
but he bought it from a different stall
because it was cheaper by 50cents=.=
and i can't believe i told him about h2
he call him 2h.
he say h2 will be calculation mistake. lol
after that homed.

"You are never too old to
set another goal or to dream a new dream." -C.S. Lewis

2008-10-09T20:50:00.005+08:00

today is a super boring day
i want to go to school!
like that not so boring and can see people too:)
i just hate I.T day
nothing to do but sian at home...
i just wrote crap for the reflections
i copy paste everything
in short, all the subject also same reflection=.=
and while i was doing the reflection
my bro told me to send him a song
chinto: can send me 'home'
me : okay
chinto: tyty
chinto: the song home
chinto: not send me home
chinto: ...
chinto: you understand?
chinto: the singapore song
me: i understand lahh!
me: u think i stupid arhh!
lol. he really think i am stupid lahh!
just wanted to waste sometime by posting...

"Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart
people into thinking they can't lose."-Bill Gates

2008-10-08T20:11:00.012+08:00

i am super happyyyyyyyyyy today!
Faith and Jasmine know why:))))

exams are finally over. yay!
can go back to my slacking mode alr. haha
today was art
i totally hate art now
why will i even like it the last time?
i must be mad
okayyy, i really wanted to draw 10 starfish for the final piece
but i didn't have enough time
i only completed 9. lol

stay back after school for the CIP discussion.
i am in the story-telling group
with An Qi, ShiYing, XinYing and YinYue
all the super chinese speaking people=.=
they were like reading and reading the whole time...

after that went to J8 with Jasmine and Faith to slack again
jasmine wanted to buy present for her teacher i think
everyday after school we can just go anywhere but home=.=
we took bus instead of mrt.
we are just lame and wanted to waste time. haha
oh yeah! we met Gerald Teo again!
we were all like shocked can
because we just met him yesterday=.=
yesterday met him in the library then today in J8
real funny lahh.
after that homed

"Mankind are governed more by
their feelings than by reason." -Samuel
Adams

2008-10-07T19:00:00.005+08:00

dinner just now with my aunties was once fun!
was really crapping a lot
we are crappy people ;D
there was this part when my small auntie ask why no news about bryan alr
i was like.....
then! my bro burst out saying
' because now have ______ ___ alr!'
we were like discussing about him the whole dinner=.=
after that was a sudden change of topic
big auntie: my grandma can cook very well, i miss her food.
if i know it, i would have ask her to teach me before she pass away.
small auntie: if i know it, i will study harder and be a doctor now.
small auntie: if i know it, i will study harder and be a lawyer now.
small auntie: if i....
big auntie: *pissed off*
i was like laughing like mad there.

H.E paper today
not bad, at least i studied and my effort didn't go waste
for the first paper for the whole of eoy
i am happy with it

went to amk library with jasmine
faith and eliz went home
borrowed books
and saw many people there. haha
nothing much alr, i guess:)

"The best thing about the future is that it comes
only one day at a time."

2008-10-02T15:59:00.004+08:00

i am really feeling emo now.
what i hope for, what i wanted
all of them just...
tmr is the last day alr
should i just walk up to him and talk?
last chance.
waited for more than 7 months.
but still, i just don't dare
to others, it might just be a easy thing
for me, it is like having to jump down a building.
if he ignore me, it will be like..
jumped down and get injured badly
people will think, what is the point of talking?
that isn't anything to say anyway
i don't know too, i didn't plan what i want to say or whatever
i just want to talk to him....

everything is turning upside down
i can't take it anymore
my geog and science paper is like shit
more papers coming
but i am just not into the study mode alr
maybe because i studied and the paper still end up..?
expecting too much or what?
i don't know.

"Enjoy when you can, and endure when you
must."

2008-09-30T20:11:00.006+08:00

look like i will never reach my goals.
tried my very best, but things just work out differently.

geog today, i didn't have enough time to complete the questions.
i lost 14 marks just like that.
i did questions 1, 2, 3 and 6:)

went orchard to slack with jasmine after school.
msg short green thing and h2.
and i flood green thing.
i sent him 10 msgs, counting from 1 to 10.
he must be super annoyed
told him i will send him more msg to count 11 to 20.
but didn't in the end.
i don't really remember what happened.

tuition after that.
my tutor say that last year maths eoy exam paper is easy. lol
home at about 6
saw my bro shopping with his friend on the way home(:

"To be what we are, and to become
what we are capable of becoming, is the only end of life."

2008-09-25T22:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZABETH CHEE!

2008-09-22T20:09:00.011+08:00

today was like.. just the same?
life is boring as always.
especially when eoy is coming.
i can't just slack away my time anymore
must score well to help pull up my terrible results.
i must study....

went jasmine's house to study after school
suppose to stay back with the group to complete science
but i just left for home
but in the end i went to jasmine's house
can't be bothered to go home.

then there was this part when i share my earpiece with tymon
we got up the bus,
then we were like walking super carefully so as not to pull the earpiece out
i tapped my card and when i look up the bus uncle was like looking at us and smiling=.=
i was like what you thinking lahh.
super embarrassing can.
study till 5+ then left
we went to the playground to slack for a while then homed
tymon's dad called me when i was on the bus
asking where is he. lol
hope he don't get anything from his dad(:

off to do ace-learning now.

"The man who regards life as
meaningless is not merely unfortunate, but almost disqualified for life."

2008-09-21T00:32:00.013+08:00

i was home the whole day
nothing much to blog about actually
but just wanted to make this blog more alive

i can't believe i actually had dinner at 10+ today
was playing viwawa with jasmine
then tymon called me and told me he was having supper=.=
me dinner, he supper. lol

oh yeah, we had 3 tests on friday
english, maths and science
i know i will just die for maths.
i only did like 7 marks out of 20
too little time for me to finish
science was okay, because.. we copied answers from one another.
english not enough time to finish too
5 marks gone!
look like i will never reach my goal, sad

elizabeth pon co
and surprisingly, i went
almost 2/3 of the ppl pon
i am happy i went!
another step closer to my goal!

nothing to blog alr.
just let this blog die for a while
because i don't feel like blogging
but must tag horh!

"In the middle of every difficulty
lies opportunity."

2008-09-16T21:58:00.012+08:00

today is a long day!
maths the whole day
maths lesson, maths remedial, maths tuition, maths hw
reached home at 7. 26pm after tuition.

didn't crap much again during maths
maths lesson is getting boring
especially when i am always rushing thr my hw. lol

brought food to school for H.E
i got 8/10 for the pie, not bad!
we had free food for recess today. haha:)

"Hope for the Best. Expect the
worst. Life is a play. We're unrehearsed."

2008-09-12T21:21:00.023+08:00

today is friday!
that is no school tmr
i am celebrating you know
finally i can sleep till mad for a day
was super tired for the past few days..

didn't crap much during maths today
don't really have the mood to crap
or even talk

i was finally early or rather on time for co!
reached co room at 2.29pm
was 1min early
super happy can

co was fun today
isolated outside the room to practise the exam song
justin isolated too
there was this part when he asked me to cut something for him
i just can't cut it due to some reasons
and he said that people with common sense can cut it
so i just got annoyed and threw the scissors on the table
and he actually said that i have ap

justin chua, you better watch out
i hate people who say i have ap.

after that was costume measurement
i was crapping with shuqing and gang
they are super sick can!
better not say it out
then i saw jasmine and faith near the co room
so i went to talk them
was telling them how SOMEONE say i have ap..
went back to co room after that to slack
when co is about to end i went to where elizabeth is
nicholas: just now when taking measurement the person pull up your shirt right. i saw your shorts
nicholas: i straight look away. your shorts green colour one.
me: that is my primary school shorts lahh. * show him*
nicholas: the person pull up mine also. then can see my underwear
me: ohh. but you dun have to show me the brand of your underwear!!
we started laughing. lol

then the voting of co tee
we didn't vote
the tee result is blue and white
still not bad lahh

after that went bbt with jasmine, faith and elizabeth
we were happily talking at first
when i found my dizi broken!
i just went crazy and started screaming..
but now after i glue it back, it look fine and like never break before:)
home after that.

"Love is like war: easy to begin but hard to stop."

2008-09-11T22:07:00.029+08:00

i am super sleepy now. but is only like 10.06pm
i was about to sleep alr
when that jasmine keep smsing me to send her the photos
all i can do is just wake up and send. lol
today was another funnnn day!

crapped a lot during maths again
me: daniel, do you know who like u?
daniel: dun know.
me: meeee!
daniel: really?
me: jonathan, know who like you?
jonathan: *shocked face*
me: meeee!
daniel: you like a lot of people horh.
i was like telling everyone that i like them today
luckily none of them believed me! haha

stay in school till 3pm+ today
was playing with table soccer the whole time
with faith, jasmine and elizabeth
until when i see him
a total mood change
i miss him badly can
then when he go home
just nice we are about to leave too
so we walk behind him to the mrt station
and we were making so much noises can
so he saw us, i think he will think that we stalk him
but i dun care...

after that went orchard with faith and jasmine
elizabeth didn't go due to some reasons
went to eat the handroll again
then went to eat pepper lunch
this is when most of the fun is
that is this comment form that we fill in
we fill in all bryan details
and was super funny lahh
i uploaded the photo
do take a look yeah!

"The laws of gravity cannot be held responsible for people falling in love."

2008-09-08T19:36:00.015+08:00

things is getting better now
i am feeling happyyyy!
today was fun!

i am as crappy as normal today
especially during maths
me: mrTan, i get this question wrong!
mrTan: *explaining the question*
me: do you argue with your wife?
is like so random can
he just give me a shocked look
and continue the question, lol
then i keep calling him to smile
after that ask him why he keep smiling today
the funny part about this is i was the one who told him to smile=.=
many funny things just happen lahh
lazy to list them all out
then when the lesson is ending
i can't believe i actually screamed
' I LOVE U, MR TAN'
i am so lame and mad this few days can, haha

listened to music in english again
ms tang actually called me when i am doing that
i was so shocked can
but i reacted normally
and she didn't notice anything!

i am happy to announce that i actually participated in chinese lesson today!!
so random. lol

co at 2.45pm today
i was late again
i must be EARLY the next co practice!
went to the place for sectional straight
when the sectional ended
i went back to co room with the group
justin was like so shocked to see me
because elizabeth didn't go due to some reasons
then he tot i will be absent with her
i won't okay! i will not dun go because my friend dun go!
home with celine after that:)

2008-09-02T23:40:00.016+08:00

many people went back to mcs the other day
how i miss the times we had together
we had a small class gathering at 6f`07classroom
we were making noise like how we did last time
tracy was telling me that the noise brought her back to the past
and i was telling her, me too
all the memories just came back to me
i really hope i was still in mcs with all my close friends
and be like last time that we can chat till tears roll down our cheeks uncontrollably
talking about how we feel about each other
and how we wanted to hate and dun friend each other
so as to not miss each other when we leave
still remember all the childish times when i say i dun want to get hurt
and stop friend-ing that someone important to me
that true friend i tot i was looking for when she is already there...
now we might no longer be close friends
but still, i want to thank her for being there for me when i needed her the most
the time when i am so depress due to some stupid reason
if she wasn't there with me, i might not have past that period of time so easily
might not past it without really being hurt
or i shall say being alive and passing it all

many things happened the past few days
the huge argument between me and my auntie uncle
it all started with a small misunderstanding
but the argument just went big
not because i want it but it reminded me of the hatred for her
i am being reminded of the unhappy past
for the past few months
we started getting close to each other
i can feel that our relationship deepening, we are getting close.
but the incident happened at the wrong time.
the hole went much more deeper
i actually screamed at her the reasons why i hated her so much
the incident happened when choosing sec school
the thousands times they are being unreasonable to me and my bro
the times when they say that i can NEVER be better than their son
and the thousands and millions things they did that disgusted me
i screamed them all out
they understood how i feel, according to what they say
they promised they will treat us better
but sad to say
the wounds will be there forever
it can't heal in a day
i think i will never be able to bury the hatred for them...
maybe i will next time
but at least, not for now

i feel like quitting co
i find it very pressurizing
the instructor wanted us to take the grade3 exam.
i only came in touch with dizi about 2 months ago
and i am already taking the grade3 exam
thinking too highly of myself? maybe
the exam is at the end of this year
that is still time for me to learn and improve on
i am afraid i can't do it
or i shall say, i know i can't do it.
i am trying hard to play well, but i can't
i find myself very useless and stupid
maybe i am asking too much from myself
maybe i am giving myself too much pressure
maybe i am trying to reach goals that i can never reach
i dun know, i find it stressful to continue playing dizi...

2008-09-02T22:39:00.011+08:00

what is the use of holiday
when u have to go to school everyday during the holiday
like what lahh
go back for co and remedial
everyday go back to school
for nothing one lorhh
co i go there slack only
because i see them play the SYF song
then i not even in
but if i go then dun play
PEOPLE scold me
then remedial i dun really learn anything
i just want my holiday back

today had maths remedial and co
i was 20mins late for maths
and i can't believe that mrTANkb actually didn't scold me, haha
after that went back home to find my dad for lunch
had chicken rice
the dun know how many times in the week lorhh
but lol, my dad want to eat then what can i do

then after that went to the driving centre
then my dad was joking and joking
after then they walk me back to school for co
at the traffic light, the red man is on lahh
then my dad cross
he was like ' no police, no cars, no problem'
super funny lahh
then is co nothing much really happened
after that home:)

FRIDAY:)
went back to mcs the other day
last friday i think
was super fun can
everyone was wearing uniform
and i wasn't because i have no school on that day
AND PEOPLE ACTUALLY TOT THAT I PON SCHOOL
i am not that kind of ppl can
unlike someone with the name TRACY LO, haha
but she was still wearing uniform
because she have to let her mum think that she went to school
bad bad girl

i saw faith back there
and we actually ran and hug each other
ppl surrounding as was like
'i tot the 2 of u same school?'
then we were laughing like mad
then we just crap and crap
then i went round the school with her looking for teachers
until when we reach the classroom for 6f`07
jingyi called me into the class and have a gathering...
we took photos
and gave each other our contact
we draw on the whiteboard
and it was really super fun
i took photos, will upload another day.

2008-08-28T20:24:00.006+08:00

finally do the quiz that faith told me to do. SLOW!

1.Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
yeah?
2.Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
no, the last time was like in june i think
3.List four people that you look up to the most?
dunknow
4.How many pets do you own as of now?
none
5.Which do you prefer?black or white?
black
6.Choose one or the other,not both:-Being stuck on an island with a friend-Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances
Being stuck on an island with a friend
7.Name three aspects that tell you who you are
bryanated, very bryanated, super bryanated.
8.If you had a power what could it be?
wish come true
9.Who was the last person you talked to?
elizabeth chee
10.Who was the last person you said 'I love you' to?
dun rmb, too many. LOL
11.Write down the first five words that pop into your head
i am not a stalker
12.What's one thing you could do better?
blowing the DIZI!!!
13.Do you like the way you are?
not really
14.Choose,summer or winter
winter
15.Choose,rain or snow
rain
16.Water or ice?
water
17.List two odd things about yourself
i am weird. weird make me special.
18.What are two of your bad habits?
...
19.Now list 6 pple who should do this quiz
fungchinto
elizabeth
jasmine
faith
monique
aileen

2008-08-26T23:16:00.010+08:00

today is really a fun day!
had oral in the morning, both english and chinese
i think i will just die for both, so sad.
there is this 2 hours break in between the oral
because i was the first to take the chinese oral
so i have a longer break than others
so a few of us planned to get out of school and drink coffee
but we were stopped by the security guard-.-
the plan failed...

then we saw mr choo
haa, we force him to treat us drink!
and we talk about science.
why they like bio so much-.-
keep talking about bio...
and his phone is so nice lahh
i want! haaha.

after that ppl and i went to my house to complete ICT
edwin, jasmine, elizabeth and clement
haa, super fun lahh
i was the timekeeper
terrible me only give them half an hour to eat
but obviously they took longer than that
5-10mins more
after that went ntuc to buy potato chips
that is this lady who asked us which school are we from
must be we did something wrong lahh
disgrace to the school-.-
after that another lady at the bus-stop asked us the same thing
this time is super disgrace. lol

then we do the project until 6+
each of them drink like 3 cups of ribena
drink so much!
then i never send them down the bus-stop
too lazy liao, hahaa

then the day just ended like that? haaha

2008-08-17T13:19:00.003+08:00

later in the afternoon my dad will reach sg
finally get to read that 2 book i ask him to buy for me from hk
a very nice book is all i can say
can't wait to see him!
and yeah. i think i can't online and blog for 1 week alr
see this blog die for a while
but must come back horhh!

2008-08-17T12:55:00.010+08:00

ytd was the first sat without ndp
i am so not used to it
have been thinking to myself
why do i feel so free out of a sudden?
ndp is really a experience that i will never forget
or i shall say how can i forget
i am missing ndp badly now
still rmb how i hated ndp from the start
still rmb myself saying that i will never miss ndp when it end
and what is happening now?
i am missing it terribly
missing the officers
missing the dance steps
missing all the rehearsals
in short i just miss everything of ndp
so sad to say, why didn't i enjoy it from the start
still rmb myself saying why didn't i pon it from the start like some people did
i am lucky that i still went in the end
i wonder when will i get use to the tuesdays and saturdays without ndp
the feeling is just so funny.

then ytd went to eliz house to complete the science project
i really slack there lahh
i like did nothing can
the only thing i do is like play with eliz's volin-.-
with is like fun
but is such noise pollution
and i think i woke her dad up
then he was like listening to music and covering his ear, lol

after that went home wanted to watch movie at first
but obviously didn't in the end
then i nap in the afternoon like for 4hours!
in the end at night can't sleep, lol
the best thing is, i was sleeping at home
but my auntie tot i went out
so she didn't buy food for me
in the end, eat the food that is suppose for my uncle-.-

2008-08-15T23:44:00.008+08:00

today is boring...
lit test in the morning
confirm die alr so dun talk about it
see people write like story book like that
then mine not even like a compo-.-
geog and lit also die alr
i can't die for science and chinese!
I MUST STUDY!!!

so many people in 1grace have hfmd
later spread to the whole class how?
people must be careful okay
and people from other class
dun see us then run lehh
like we sure have hfmd like that..

2008-08-14T22:19:00.012+08:00

i can't believe i actually watched Ben 10 just now
my bro was watching it with Aidan and Faith
so i just join in
they are like so excited about the show lahh
and i dun even understand a single thing-.-

today started out very well man
chapel in the morning
i went to sit with tymon on purpose
because he will sure be talking to me the whole time
so surely won't sleep during chapel like how i did last time
obviously, i didn't sleep
had great time crapping with him
and we sing loudly
so unlikely of me. haha.
was playing with him during chapel
almost got scolded by ms tang for misbehaving-.-

after that was maths
daydream the whole time
until mr tan ask me to complete a qn on the board
i did it wrongly obviously
then when i reached my seat
they told me the correct answer
then i was like telling mr tan to change the answer for me

mrTAN: how u know the correct answer? they told you?
me: *laughing like mad*
mrTAN: *smile* what happen to you today? what you eat for breakfast?
me: *laughing more madly*
tymon: she took laughing pills!

then i dun rmb what happen alr
will edit the post if i rmb anything:)

2008-08-10T19:23:00.012+08:00

12 days already...

2008-08-06T23:58:00.017+08:00

today was okay
not too bad
went back to marymount after school
suppose to meet sheetal and kiran there at 2pm
but i was obviously late, i only reach there at about 3
thinking that i will be late
i have been thinking of reasons on my way back there
but wth, i waited there till at 4pm+
and still dun see them.
so i sms them
after what take like ages
their mother called me to say that they can't make it there

i almost kill ppl can
late for 2 hours alr still dun plan to inform me
if i dun sms them then must wait until the school close lahh
if they cannot come at least must tell me right
waste my time
and what, their mother still tell me
'if u see them later then u will see them, if u dun then go home'
i was like wtf lahh, i go back because of them okay.
still say dun see them then go home
if they dun want to go back i won't like force them lorhh
she think wad i go back for fun
i also dun know go back for wad
also like nothing to say to the teachers and ppl there alr
i go back BECAUSE of them
and they sound like i go back for another reason!
i am not going out with them anymore
at least for now, i dun want to...

but okay lahh. had a great time back there
took photos of the school
ohh yeah. 6f`07 and 6g`07 the classroom
they change the whiteboard lehh
change to blackboard or wad you call it

i miss mcs!
i want to go back to last time
is so fun and trouble free then
now? i dun want to say much..

haiya, sooner or later, ppl there will not know us anymore, the seniors
just now while i was looking for kiran and sheetal
i saw this p6 prefect
was thinking kiran was the head-prefect 2 years ago
so she should know kiran
i can't believe she actually say she dun know kiran or even sheetal
if sheetal is still there she will be in p6 now
the ppl in the same lv as her also dun know her
and is like she only left singapore last year
1 year and ppl dun know who is she alr
that is so fast..

just like years down the road
no one will even know we studied in mcs before
is like no link to mcs anymore
we know mcs and mcs dun know us
we are like strangers to the school

and just now when i was still at mcs
i went to take a look at the hand drawing on the wall
it is starting to fade off alr
when the thing is totally gone
even no link
we left like no footsteps there...

2008-08-05T20:54:00.010+08:00

was looking thru photos when i saw this.

i just miss my prefect life in mcs lahh.

is like totally fun can.

know where am i?

i am standing with my bestfreind, sheetal

they didn't take prefects photo in 2007.

so i only have the 2006 one.

but i think i look the same lahh

faith khong! rmb this photo? haha

eliz never come to school today!
be back soon okay!

ms tang never come to school today also
so was thinking will have free period
but wth, mr ang take over the lesson
i dun like him lahh
i want free period can!!

had H.E test today, most of the ppl in class copied lahh
obviously, me too! haha
is like super difficult lahh
dun copy sure will die one
but copy alr dun die so badly only

finally i went home straight after school
is like after million years.
and too, finally have lunch at home.
and yeah. ytd dun have co lahh.
so jasmine went to my house to complete the chinese project
so we reach at about 5
and know what my auntie say?
she ask me why am i home so early
i was like is 5+ alr lahh
do i really reach home so late everyday? lol lahh.

dun know what to say alr, life is so boring.

2008-07-30T22:22:00.004+08:00

hahah! today is really a real fun day!
not going to talk about school. wait
one nice part to talk about!
you ppl rmb the bryan photo at the back of 03-01, the geog room?
i used my phone camera and took a photo of that photo. lol
cool lorhh! so cuteeeee, i mean he...hahah

the best part of the day..
went to united square to have lunch with faith!
or better call dinner, lol
went that only like at 4pm?
before that faith went back to her house to put down her bag
while i go buy bbt. and you know what ?
i saw tracy, rkycia and michelle!
and tracy cut her hair. like so weird now. lol

and on the way to united square...i called keshav.

me: hello may i speak to bryan
he: huh
me: may i speak to bryan
he: hmm, right.. wrong number
me: ohh. okay sorry.

faith went crazy can.
keep saying his voice is very nice
like wth, lol.

different way of blogging. tell me which way better
i think this one lehh. haha

2008-07-28T23:10:00.004+08:00

what is happening to me? i feel the changes in my life. it is changing to fast. pls slow down.

that are things that i know is planned ahead of me. why am i so stupid? why will i want to change what is planned for me using my own hand. i know i don't have the power to, but still i want change what is happening to me. i hate the things He planned for me. i am trying to change it. i can't believe i will end up this way, being unhappy of whatever He have planned for me. i know i must trust in Him. but sorry to say, i am losing faith, losing hope. i know, who am i to go against Him. i am just so small without Him, that won't be me. i know all this things is just part of learning. but if i can only learning by that way. i hope i will never learn. be that innocent kid who know nothing about life and the problems in it.

2008-07-27T21:40:00.003+08:00

what happened the past few days? i don't know. all i know is, life is so meaningless and purposeless. haha. i don't know what is happening in my life. what is planned for me. everyday is just the same for me. when can i find the true purpose in life? never, i guess. at least not now...